I am having such an awful time with depression right now. I don’t know why. There is nothing in my life that is terrible. Yes, some things need improving, but I don’t expect things to be perfect (I don’t think), and I know that no one’s life is perfect, so why the depression?
I’m lonely. I’m not connecting with people here. My ex-husband, whom I continue to date, can show disregard for me. I’ve gained weight. Sage is not doing his work in school. Sky is unmotivated and plans to drop out of college after this semester. I’m lonely.
That’s it, really. I’m so sad. I’ve even been crying, which sucks. I don’t do that, especially because it makes Sage wonder what’s wrong. I don’t want to take a bunch of antidepressants. I just want this feeling to go away.
Stress, kids–I know how they can fool with your mind. Crying always helps me work through my emotions, so I don’t mind it. However, if it’s a constant pattern, then meds or counseling or both would be my option. I’m sorry things aren’t going very well, Michelle.
The anti-d’s aren’t so hot, I know. It’s like botox for the mind – makes me numb sometimes. But sometimes numb is better than wacko.
Unfortunately, happiness doesn’t come from merely not being unhappy – while the opposite is also often true.