Thoughts
Posted on | September 11, 2009 | 5 Comments
My camera makes a grumbly whirring sound when I turn it on. Then it tries to start, makes some more crumbly grumbly noises and shuts itself off. So. No photos for a while. Greg and I are pooling our money to buy a wood stove so that we aren’t all freezing in one room this winter while still paying a $400 electric bill like we did last winter. We’re aiming to buy one that is made in the US. Hopefully, that will be affordable.
Not that I ever really made a, um, habit of this, but I’ll think twice before ever again casually saying, “Yeah, and his mom’s a drug addict.” I’m getting the whole addiction thing, really getting it. It’s not cool. I’ve had about fifteen unpleasant side effects so far, including my arm going numb today, causing me not to be able to complete a credit card transaction without dropping the pen twice and feeling disembodied, somehow.
I saw a therapist, who made me an appointment with a doctor who is supposed to know what they’re doing. It occurred to me that if I hadn’t been honest with the first one, saying that I wanted off this stuff, that I wouldn’t be in this particular fix. I could have just picked up my prescription and tapered off on my own. Stupid.
Sage has been playing racquetball like a fiend everyday after work with his friend while I do the treadmill. I see him getting a lot more energy. I wasn’t able to eat solid food for about a week, thanks to the withdrawal crap, so I have become the smoothie queen. I realized after about five days that I was eating a raw food diet, which was funny, because Emma had just mentioned it to me a couple of weeks ago.
Recipe: One cup blackberries, peaches, blueberries or any combination thereof. One cup almond or soy milk, unsweetened. One to two tablespoons raw nut butter. One packet Stevia. Blend. It tastes like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich without the bread. So delicious, and kept me going this week. My skin is very clear, and I’m dropping weight.
I heard a story about one of my students from last year today. He’s a smart kid who, classically, doesn’t work to potential. Story goes his uncle told him he’d beat the snot out of him if he ever brought home another A. He comes from this redneck family that he doesn’t fit into, so I can see that being true, unfortunately. It’s one of those truth is stranger than fiction things if true. Right now, he’s in the Texas Youth Commission (TYC) because he got in another fight and hit a teacher. He told me on the last day of school that he knew he would be locked up. 
I am wondering how to make enough time in the day for Sage to have free time. He has so much going on. We go to the gym after school, then come home, he walks the dogs, practices piano, does his homework and reads for half an hour. By that time, he doesn’t have time to really unwind. The gym is pretty much the closest thing to free time that he has. I’m wondering how this is all going to shake down when he’s in band next year. I hate to see him drop the piano, because he’s really good at it. Oh, and I forgot to mention Boy Scouts. We don’t even play sports…those people must have particularly crazy lives! He is not complaining about it though, and he is working very hard. I’m so proud of him.
Mornings are funny at our house. I get undressed and get on the scale before drinking an ounce, hoping I’ve lost weight. Greg drinks his coffee, gets dressed and puts on his boots, and THEN gets on the scale, hoping he’s gained. Really, I wish you could donate fat just like blood. That would be so cool. Not that Greg needs my fat, he’s perfect just the way he is.
But can you imagine? Fat donation? It would put the Red Cross to shame, you know it would.
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September 11th, 2009 @ 3:31 am
Ha! Great post. It put a smile on my face.
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September 11th, 2009 @ 3:44 am
I love the idea of fat donation! The smoothies sound wonderful. Yum–anything with berries in it is a favorite of mine. I’ve never heard of nut butter though. I hope this doctor can help with the med withdrawal. Some stages of kids’ lives are just crazy and busy. I’ve lived through that myself.
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September 11th, 2009 @ 7:27 am
When I heard smoothies, raw diet was indeed the first thing that popped into my mind. It’s most likely because I’ve been reading Steve Pavlina’s blog (according to who, peanut butter isn’t raw because the peanuts are roasted). But yeah, can’t go wrong with all that fruits in your diet. Speaking of which, I should go eat some now. Look how inspiring you are.
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September 14th, 2009 @ 8:20 pm
“I am wondering how to make enough time in the day for Sage to have free time. ”
Try giving him lots of coffee to drink. Then he can wind down when he would have otherwise been sleeping.
Wait, I’m not sure I thought this through…
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September 18th, 2009 @ 7:21 pm
Glad to see you are keeping your sense of humor through the medicine withdrawal. That has to suck eggs. As a substitute have you tried hypnosis? It is pretty good for a lot of disorders and relieves anxiety especially well.
Need a camera, huh? Depending upon your needs and price range I would suggest the Canon A600 line as good point and shoot cameras with a low price. If you are looking to step up to a SLR camera you can’t go wrong with my Nikon D5000. I know you will be going for the wood stove first but sometime in the future you will be wanting to get a good camera.
Take care,
Ken Albin
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