I’ve woken up several times in the past few days with my teeth chattering. It’s not that the bedroom is cold–I wish!–but that I shake so hard that eventually my teeth start acting like I’m in a blizzard. My ears are ringing and I have digestive issues you don’t want me to expound upon. My vision is so blurry that I bought a pair of reading glasses, only to discover that the real problem is that…my vision is blurry regardless of of how big the text I’m working on is.
There are other things too, and after several months of withdrawal from Ativan, it’s getting old. Like gaining ten pounds because I was binging on carbs as a way to calm my body down. The good news is that I have went from 4mg to 1.5mg. I’m going to make it. I could make a career out of warning people to stay away from this stuff.
I have other good news as well. I’ve been wanting to work on a fictional book for quite some time, but I never had an idea that I thought was very good or that I’d even care to put effort into. That all changed the other day. A plot dropped down out of the sky and hit me like a ton of bricks. I spent a good portion of my sleepless night last night mapping out the characters. I think this will be fun to write–even more fun because a good friend of mine and I will be working on our respective novels at the same time and holding one another accountable.
I can’t wait for cool weather to get here. I think the withdrawal stuff is worse because I’m hardly exercising at all. I have a stress fracture that I’ve been nursing and it’s too hot to do those two mile walks with the dogs, who get about 15 minutes walking around the park in the evening and that’s it. It’s been so hot that I don’t even feel like riding my bike–it has been as hot as 95 degrees at eight o’clock in the evening! Ridiculous! /weather rant
Okay. I think I’ve gotten everything off my chest so that I can begin the day’s task of writing articles about bridal shower gifts and editing titles until holes are burned in my retina. (I did 1500 of them yesterday!)
I never knew that so many meds had withdrawal symptoms–OMG. It’s a good warning not to go on them unless absolutely necessary. I love that you’re writing a book; it’s always been my dream. The weather here is finally warming up into the 70s.
Yeah, hot weather and calming down simply don’t mix very well. It takes less effort when it’s cold. Do share the book when you are done!
I dropped in from Margarets. Sorry to hear you’re having such withdrawal symptoms. When the book is finished do let me know if you need help promoting it.
After finishing the fictional book, work your way up to writing a real one!
I wish I knew where those plots drop down from. It’d be so much easier to go look for them at the source.
“A plot dropped down out of the sky and hit me like a ton of bricks.”
That is very exciting!!!
keep hanging in there with the stepping down process … you’ve made great strides!!
((hugs))
deb
Yeah, plug me into your source. I could use a plot line.
(hang in there with the Ativan weening. YOU CAN DO IT!)