Creative Angst

Posted on | August 21, 2010 | 4 Comments

I’ve been drawing and painting again, after stopping for a couple of months. What happened is that I looked at what I had done and thought it was complete crap, so I quit. I started up again because there is no other way to improve other than to keep trying, and the process itself is very helpful to me in that I quit jonesing for Ativan while I’m doing it. I would love to do a workshop in a drug rehab facility that encourages people to just have fun with art, because it really does help. Of course, I need to practice what I preach, because although I had a blast with the butterfly, I now look at it and it looks incredibly childish and not in that good kind of way. What’s worse is that I have a tendency to compare anything artistic that I do to the work of others–in many cases, others who have been doing art for far longer than I.

Varmint has been very relaxed lately. She’s mellowing out in her old age. Yes, she has three legs.

I may have already mentioned this, but I’ve recently started watching quite a bit of television due to research that shows that watching television slows your brain activity down to the point where you might as well be asleep. I figure this is exactly what my healing brain needs more of, so I’ve been watching multiple episodes of My Name Is Earl while I crochet at night. We watched all of the Breaking Bad episodes available on Netflix, as well as every episode of The Shield. Great writing on all of these shows.

So anyway, I created a couple of patterns that differ from what I normally crochet. I didn’t style the pics or make much of an effort, so it’s difficult to see them to their best advantage. I’ll have to remedy that, of course, if I intend to put them on Etsy.

Sage made me promise to edit out his face on the frilly scarf pic.

I found a website some time ago that I loved, and then forgot to bookmark it. It’s a drawing/recipe site. One thing I miss about Austin is soba noodles, so I plan to make this recipe. Check it out–They Draw & They Cook.

Sage starts school again on Monday. I am planning to go to the coffee shop and write in the mornings so that I can break the habit of not concentrating, if that makes sense. It’s been so difficult to write with Sage playing with friends, etc. around me all day, and I need a change of scenery. Hopefully, that’ll snap me back into some modicum of productivity.

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4 Responses to “Creative Angst”

Margaret
August 21st, 2010 @ 8:50 pm

You are WAY too hard on yourself. The butterfly is amazing as are the very creative scarves!! I can understand that about TV; I go into a “zone” myself if I start watching–two hours later, I’m still sitting there like a zombie.
Kelvin Kao
August 21st, 2010 @ 9:15 pm

Yeah, the butterfly looked good! But then again, who am I to comment on painting skills? :-p
Lee Anne
August 23rd, 2010 @ 1:25 am

I personally think the picture you drew is beautiful! You are so much more talented than you give yourself credit for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pacian
August 23rd, 2010 @ 7:16 pm

I think the butterfly’s awesome. The line art’s great, but the colouring really makes it.

I love The Shield. Not an easy watch, by any means, but the plotting is astounding, and the camerawork and direction the best I’ve seen on TV. Also check out The Wire if you’ve never seen it. Especially season 4 (although each season builds on the previous one to great effect).