Fear

I’ve been writing like crazy — thankfully, I’ve been able to concentrate and really turn out the articles. I realized that if I put my mind to it, I could make the $5,000 I want for a down payment on a new car this month instead of digging into the savings. I really hope the [...]

Perseverance

Those of you who have been my blog friends for years know I’m an old-school blogger who blogs to get stuff off of my chest and provide a record of life — good and bad — that I can look back at later. I don’t think about “value to my reader” and other stuff like [...]

Reality

Took only 1/4 mg of Ativan this morning — a mere eighth of the amount of poison I used to start my day with. I’m soooo jazzed! I really just want to stop taking it altogether, but the possibility of a seizure is making me be patient. I read a book that was so good [...]

Acceptance

I am saying the serenity prayer over and over in my head. You know, the one that goes, “…accept the things I cannot change…” I see how this could help with addiction, but am not sure how one goes about being able to accept things one does not like. I got an email from Sky [...]

Activated Dreams

My dreams are so much more vivid lately. Last night, I saw colors that were much more colorful and magical than in real life, traveled all night in a series of helicopters, landed in airports where corrupt officials stole from me and tried to kill me. The weirdest thing was when this guy pulled out [...]

Vacation’s Over

I had a nice vacation. I decided to quit the Ativan withdrawal process for the holidays — starting around Thanksgiving — and start up again after the new year. I figured that withdrawing while simultaneously dealing with the stress of the holidays would not be a good thing. So I just stayed at my new [...]

Camera

I spent an hour this morning feeling a little shaky — and more than a little excited — after purchasing this camera with this additional lens. One reason to get a new camera might be because Sage has completely taken over my point and shoot with his Lego video hobby. But that’s not it — [...]

Computer

The most bizarre, and fortunate, thing just happened. UPS dropped off my new computer, 23″ screen and accessories without a signature, which they were not supposed to do. We came home and the boxes were piled up against the door in full view of the street. One of them had a big photo of the [...]

Learning to Be Strong

First of all, the reason the prior post dealing with this matter is protected is because of one malicious individual in town who may read this blog. That said, anyone who uses this as fodder for gossip can go hang. I took Sage to the doctor on Friday. The doctor took one look at the [...]

Scarves, Hammocks and Tics

I finally put up my Etsy shop, which has a grand total of four scarves in it. My sister-in-law (the not-evil one) was kind enough to model. If anyone orders one of the “branch” scarves, though, I’ll simply make another and put it back in stock. I plan to make some more little dolls — [...]